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kmaren pegi blanja ma ci nani di suntec.. rencana awal sih ini bikini shopping yah.. kita ada resolusi utk bli bikin bareng n jg pake bareng buat acara jemur n nyante2 di pante.. (hihihi..).. tp seblom nyampe nemu bikini yg sreg, tiba2 kita ‘ditarik’ utk masuk ke toko spatu on the way (cewe gitu loh! cant resist shoes!!).. dan akhirnya, kita kluar sambil masing2 bawa tas belanjaan.. i bought 1 pair of sandal n 1 pair of shoes!!sendalnya tu model sendal jepit, tp cute pisan ada hiasan yg kesannya ethnic gitu.. sbenernya kyknya dah pernah liat cici Tracy pake sendal mirip2 gini, tapi yah apa daya.. teuteup aja napsu beli.. whahaha.. and then ada so-called special sale di toko itu, n ada spatu sendal merk Diesel yg jg soooo cute harga 39.90 (original price nya 129.90).. well.. stelah dicoba2, jalan mondar mandir pake spatu itu.. ngaca muter2.. well.. akhirnya diputuskan utk beli itu spatu jg.. (huaaaa… kluar duit banyak.. T_T).. tapi stelah beli, hepi lohhhh.. dapet 2 pasang spatu-sendal dgn harga yg cukup ok plus aku nya jg suka pisan.. hihihi..
see~!.. so cuteee~!
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yup yup yup.. kmaren adalah labor day.. apa itu labor day? labor day adalah hari buruh n apparently ini dirayain ma banyak negara loh.. sayangnya indonesia termasuk yg kaga merayakan 
.. tapi denger2 kmaren ternyata di indo jg libur euy.. tapi libur kenaikan Isa Almasih a.k.a Yesus.. pantes aja kmaren ada anak kampung tercinta tau2 nanya di singapore ke greja ato kaga.. *ga ke greja sih, tapi kan krn ga tauuu :”>
anywhoo.. rencana awal kmaren mo bobo n nyante2 di rumah tercinta, tapi kemudian dpt ajakan lunch dr mba angzas n setelah berpikir n berdiskusi kita akhirnya bermufakat (PPKn banget) utk makan di carl’s jr di vivocity. carl’s jr itu sbenernya sih ada di vivo or plazing, tapi trus mikir lebih baek ke vivo kali yee soalnya jarang pisan ke sono, trus jadi akhirnya janjian dgn mba angzas n bang rusdi utk ktemu di vivo city.
di mrt ke vivo, bosen dengerin lagu doank, browse video di creative zen tercinta, ehhhh ternyata ada 4 video Beverly Hills 90210 yg belom ditonton (90s mode ON!). begitu ada kursi kosong, buru2 duduk n nonton dgn anteng. tapi hasil nya, stasiun Dhoby Ghaut kelewatan n baru nyadar pas kreta baru aja jalan. jadi dengan terpaksa turun di Raffles Place, naek sampe Outram Park trus tuker ke purple line lagi (combo abis 3 jalur dilewatin smua), alhasil yg musti nya nyampe harbourfront jam 2, baru nyampe jam 2.20an .. stelah kena omel bentar dr mba angzas, kita lgsg menuju carl’s jr (janjian ma bang rusdi mo lgsg ktemu di sono).
btw, fyi, singapore tu lagi panas pisan bbrp hari ini, sampe kl mo bobo yg nama nya air-con pasti nyala deh, tinggal di lante 14 ga cukup windy utk kaga kepanasan. tapi kmaren, bang rusdi jaketan booo. dakoe n mba angzas jadi liatin dia dgn binun pas liat dia jaketan. dan setelah selidik demi selidik, ternyata dia jaketan krn baju kaos dalemannya kaga disetrika, jadi lusuh booo.. (wakakaka..) jadi next time, kl liat bang rusdi jaketan, jgn lgsg assume dia nya lg sakit ato gmn2, krn mgkn aja itu disebabkan dia nya males setrika kaos nya.. hihihihi..
stelah kenyang makan, kita putusin ke kino takashimaya, puter2 bentar. ada buku Narnia 7-in-1, tebel kyk harry potter deh. sempet tergoda jg utk beli krn emang lg ada niat buat bli complete Narnia series. tapi setelah berdua dgn mba angzas membuka paksa plastik salah satu buku nya, ternyata buku nya kaga ada gambarnya (fyi ajah, buku2 Narnia yg kepisah ada gambar2nya spy lebih gampang bayanginnya), gambar2nya cm ada di header tiap chapternya. .. batal beli d jadi nya (which was good too, ngurangin pengeluaran, hihihihi)..
dr kino, kita menuju toapayoh dlm rangka utk minum ice milk tea nya mos burger di sono n skalian bang rusdi perlu ambil paspor n EP dr mba Nora. on the way ke toapayoh, mba angzas sms-in mba Nora, bilangin spy pas ktemu bang rusdi, lgsg nanya, “kok pake jaket? kedinginan yak?”, dlm rangka utk nyindir tentu nya.. wakakaka.. tapi mba nora yg baru aja bangun (itu jam 6 sore lohhh), bukannya bilang “kedinginan yak?” malah bilangnya “kepanasa yak?” *haizz.. mba nora oh mba nora..
trus stelah mba nora makan mos burger, kita bli anting2 trus pulang ke rumah masing2.. *sigh*.. kmaren tu terasa begitu cepet euy.. tau2 sampe rumah dah jam 830 ajah.. mandi2, siap2in dokumen buat apply PR, nonton csi:ny hasil donlotan, trus di-buzz ma kenalan agent (hasil dikenalin bang hace), alhasil chatting ampe jam 1-2 malem. dia kyknya kurang temen di sini, jadi nya bukannya pedekate as an agent, dia malah kyk pedekate temen gitu. lucu2 aja sih. dr obrolin kerjaan, gaji (penting nih spy dia cariin yg gaji gede!), kluarga, singapore sampe masalah pacar. ternyata dia putus ma mantannya krn beda kasta, kacian yah ..
jam 1-2an gitu dia nya bobo, trus gantian si om manggil. haizz.. ngobrol ma dia mah rada irritating euy.. ngaku nya sih dah mo befriend doank.. tp teuteup ajakin pegi duaan, ajakin nonton.. lgsg aja bilangin dia, kl aku ma dia not that close utk pegi duaan doank (krn aku ga ngrasa jadi temen dia ajah), n aku bilang lagi kl ma tun tun (ex colleague who he happens to know oso) aja kaga pernah pegi nonton duaan. ehhh.. dia nya bilang kaga bisa compare ma tun tun krn tun tun tu cuma temenan doank, kl dia tu emang ngejar2 aku.. haizz.. mendingan jg tun tun yg ngejar (ngareppppp~!!)
well anyway, akhirnya baru bobo jam 330an deh.. n pagi nya bangun pagi2 jam 730 demi nyampe kantor jam 8an n spy masi sepi n bisa nge-print2 dokumen utk PR.. n skarang jadi nya.. nantuk2.. biar pun dah di dope ma kopi gelas gede.. (whoahmm..).. plus kebetulan kerjaan utk hr ni dah kelar jg.. *gmn kaga tambah nantuk.. haizzz..*
tar pulang kntr lgsg pulang rumah kali yee.. skalian ber-hemat mode.. duit menipis dan bakal banyak pengeluaran jg.. *sobs*..
and for the next 8 hours, musti kuat2in spy kaga bobo di kantor nehhh.. posisi meja dah ga bagus, smua orang bisa dgn mudah liat, kan paiseh jg kl kliatan lg bobo..
hoahhhmm..
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* begini lah weekend di singapore.. kyknya tiap minggu ampir sama ajah..
awal minggu ajakin mba Nonie (temen skampung boo..) buat lunch bareng hr sabtu nya (atas permintaan mba angzas) dan gue tambahin wanti2, “awas kl batalin!”.. jadi nya Nonie pun takluk n ga brani batalin.. tapi hr sabtu itu, ujan deras tiba2 datengggggg.. kenceng banget angin nya.. seremmmm.. tp asik sih udara nya buat bobo.. tadi nya dakoe berpikir mo brangkat jam 11an, tp mba Nonie bilang mo bersih2 dulu jadi ne baru bisa jam 1.. yah jadinya stelah bangun jam stengah 10, dakoe mencoba menahan lapar.. tp.. *sigh*.. akhirnya tak tahan lagiiii (nyanyi mode) n bikin mie abc selera pedes (thank you adittt… muach muach…)..
dan akhirnyaaaa.. kita confirmed ketemuan di bishan mrt jam 1230.. untungnya ujan dah brenti jg.. so kita pegi ke vivo city (stelah bbrp saat binun mo kmana).. ktemu mba angzas n mas eyik.. pengen cari honeydew soya bean tp ga nemu n akhirnya we hd to satisfy our thirst dgn bli sugar cane + lemon.. yummy.. enak sih.. cm abis itu jadi haus pisan bukannya nyembuhin haus *hiks..*
mba angzas n mas eyik cm hang out ampe jam 3an gitu krn musti ke sentosa bareng mba jeli yg kebetulan sedang berkunjung ke singapore.. trus gue n nonie decided utk cari pelem ajah n akhirnya kita nonton Untraceable.. dan seblom nonton kita makan dulu di Carl’s Jr *yummmyyy.. im in love with u Carllll*.. kl uda mulai makan ni, smua diet terlupakan.. pdhl clana n rok mulai ngepas.. *inget lisaaaa.. saat nya diet!!
Untraceable jg lumayan menarik.. rada sadis (biar pun masi kalah ma SAW).. inti ide nya adalah online live video streaming, di mana di video nya, ada orang dlm posisi “siap mati”.. for example, ada orang dgn kaki n tangan disemen (spy kaga bisa gerak2) dan di sekelilingnya ada banyak lampu panas (yg biasa ada di kfc gitu deh).. dan lampu yg nyala tergantung dr jumlah hit ke website itu.. smakin banyak yg hit n watch the video, smakin banyak lampu yg nyala n smakin cepet orang itu akan mati krn kebakar panas lampu.. well.. scara ga langsung, viewers yg tune in nonton tu video adalah accomplice dr pembunuh itu.. dan tugas si Diane Lane sbagai agent FBI adalah utk nge-trace tu website n nangkep tu pembunuh sadis.. dan dia sempet jg sbagai salah satu korban yg di dlm video streaming tapi tentu saja sebagai pelakon utama dia berhasil lepas.. huahuahaua.. *cewe jagoan booo..
hari minggu nya.. pagi2 dah dapet sms dr mba angzas ajakin bubur.. pdhl mata aja blom 100% melek.. dgn terpaksa lisa menolak.. *maap mba angzas*..
trus siangnya.. janji ktemuan ma bang rusdi n mba nora.. mo lunch trus ke bras basah complex krn mba nora mo cari cross stitch pattern n kata mba janet di kantor, di sono ada toko art friend yg jualan.. tp akhirnya kunjungan kita ke bras basah complex cm menghasilkan buku bekas chronicles of narnia: the magician’s nephew (sempet ke 2 toko, yg satu jual 6.5 dolar, yg satu nya 3.9 dolar, untung lisa masi rada2 kyk cewe jadi nya nanya2 toko laen, wakakaka)..
dan berkat tu buku, akhirnya lisa bisa ngerti awal tercipta nya narnia, dr mana si white witch, n knapa tu wardrobe jadi pintu ke narnia.. hmm.. the book is worth the money.. *iya lah.. cm 3.9 dolar gitu loh..*
on the way from bras basah complex to bugis junction, we met mr. C and his gf.. but i didnt bother to smile or greet him coz i didnt think he was worth the effort.. his gf also only talked to rusdi.. according to nora, mr. C was trying to talk to me (i knew that he was looking at me lar), but i jz kept ignoring him.. meeting him kinda changed my mood a bit, but then as usual, i tried to make a huge smile and started talking.. alot.. and the rest of the evening went smooth.. *im glad.. ^^*
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abis baca blog seorang temen. dia punya definisi yg menarik ttg apa itu teman. g paste di bawah aja ni:
sekali teman tetap teman. kita mungkin kurang kontek, kita mungkin kurang komunikasi, tapi dalam hati gue, smua temen adalah tetap teman dan akan selalu begitu dan tentu saja dengan demikian teman kita tuh seharusnya slalu bertambah 
. Mungkin kita akan tidak bertegur sapa satu sama lain, mungkin kita akan marah mungkin kita akan menikah mungkin kita akan punya anak. Tapi teman bukanlah seperti kekasih yg hrs sering bertemu. Teman bukanlah hub keluarga yg hrs terus kita silahturahmi. teman bukanlah hub colleague yg putus setelah kita pindah kerja. teman bukanlah tetangga yg putus setelah kita pindah rumah dan teman bukanlah anak yg slalu harus kita jaga.
Teman itu hub paling spesial krn tanpa dijaga tp tetap ada. Tanpa ekpektasi berlebihan dari kdua belah pihak. Tidak ada hak, tidak ada kewajiban. Tapi dengan teman kita bisa menjadi diri kita, bercerita apa adanya keluh kesah sedih gembira bahkan cerita2 yg kita tidak bisa ungkapkan dgn pacar suami istri bahkan orang tua. Teman adalah tempat bersandar terdekat setelah Tuhan, Orang Tua, Istri/Suami dan anak. Walau tidak memberi bantuan, dengan cukup mendengarkan, teman telah memberikan bantuan yg lebih dr apapun.
g speechless pas baca ini. well.. this blog explains a lot. explains why he didnt think it was necessary to meet up or hang out with a bunch of old friends. it’s all because he thinks that it’s not important and necessary at all!! Jeezz.. i gotta say i disagree with this posting..
Teman itu hub paling spesial krn tanpa dijaga tp tetap ada. -> nama nya temen, rada mirip sperti kekasih, kl dibiarin aja tanpa ada contact sama skali, hubungan itu jg lama2 akan mati, akan jadi kaku, awkward. it takes time for 2 persons to become friends, it has process, a simple introduction will not make friendship, it only adds up the number people you know, but not adding up your friends.
Tanpa ekpektasi berlebihan dari kdua belah pihak. -> can’t expect you to be a good friend as well then?
Tidak ada hak, tidak ada kewajiban -> apakah ini jg berarti kl misalnya temen lg butuh ditemenin or what-so-ever, dia ga ada kewajiban utk nemenin n lebih baek utk nemenin kekasih yg emang harus sering ketemu?
holy shit! for all this time, i always consider him as a good and close friend. one of the closest friends. a friend that i can easily talk to about anything. ternyata dia nya punya persepsi beda ttg friendship. so all feelings, all efforts, all the time i tried to understand, tried to be there, all meant nothing??!?!?!!?!!
ARRGGHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *emotional wave coming…
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for the past few weeks, there’s been a tension between me and one of my closest friends (let’s say this is mr. C). actually this tension has been there for quite some time, but i decided to ignore it and tried to forget. until one day one of my close friends who has jz been in Singapore for few months brought it up (let’s say this guy is mr. R).
Mr. R mentioned about mr. C and i had our own separate world. mr. C has his own world with his own friends and apparently, i disliked some of his friends, well actually i disliked 2 of them, but the worst thing was the one person that i disliked now is his gf (so apparently, i’m doomed!!). I myself also hav several groups of friends which mr. C doesn’t really socialize with. and mr. R mentioned that mr. C dislikes one of my friends that i introduced to him.
The saddest person here was actually mr. R coz he was like ’squeezed’ between my world and mr. C’s world. mr. R also came up with some plan for us to hang out together and all. but actually i don’t really expect anything from it since i’ve been more and more pessimistic about my friendship with mr. C since he started having mrs. C as his gf. it often happened that i had a plan with mr. C but then he would cancel it on the last minute because mrs. C asked him not to go, or mrs. C got to do something and mr. C had to accompany her, etc etc etc.
So after mr. R brought up this problem and sent email to both of mr. C and me, i replied the email, feeding up all my emotion and anger, and then i said it all in the email. about how i was so disappointed that mr. R and i were the least important person after mrs. C, that mr. C often said sarcastic thing about my new friends when my new friends can be available to me and he’s NOT, that mr. C laughed at my possible ‘doomed’ future when the rest of people that knew can show some empathy and a bit caring. and YES!! deep inside i’m very mad at mr. C. and this condition is definitely not helping in developing my liking towards mrs. C.
and then the climax was last weekend. i asked mr. C if he could be available to accompany me coz i was in a very low self-esteem mode and i really needed some company of a friend that really knew me. but he said he already got an appointment with mrs. C and his colleagues so he would confirm later. but until later that nite, there was no news from him what-so-ever. mr. R was a bit worried about me and he called my cell few times, but i was really not in the mood to answer any calls so i never picked up d phone. i jz spent my nite with someone else, seeking a comfort from someone i should’ve never been with. but i jz felt like i needed it.
oh shit! this thing happening between me and mr. C is definitely not healthy. it’s not possible for me to like mrs. C after all of these. i’m not a person who can easily change my feeling towards others so easily. especially if that person has left quite deep marks in making me dislike her.
oh well.. i think the best is for me to let go. let go everything. well.. not totally everything.. jz let go my friendship with mr. C.. he’s in need of a gf much more than friends. that is the most important thing that i HAVE to UNDERSTAND.. and now i’m trying..
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it’s been 1 year and 11 months since the first time i came to Singapore to stay ‘for good’. and i’ve been meeting a lot of new people. some of them became friends or even good friends, some jz stayed in the polite-head-nod level. and throughout those times, lots of them had taken some parts in what i have been now.
sooo… now i jz have the urged to try to list down the people that hv had some impacts in my course of life. and since i’m staying in Singapore, i think it would be polite if i start with Singaporeans (hehehe…).
let’s start with TT (her initial). she’s my senior in my office. my first impression on her was she looked so cold, unapproachable, calm and steady. but my impression changed when i saw her joking around with D (my other senior), her eyes was sparkling and so expressive and honestly, it amazed me. beyond her coldness, she could be fun. then i started being relaxed and sometimes joked around with her, but it was still in the colleague zone. until one day, she asked me if i liked singing thru msn, but i wasnt avail that time. apparently she was about to ask me out for singing with other colleagues from different team. and then one thing lead to another, we decided to go dinner together on the weekend. but it was quite awkward since well, i never thought that my relationship with her could go beyond office walls. and then when my contract with agency was expiring and i wanted to be hired directly by my company, she helped me to talk with my bosses. she also supported me when i was feeling down and not confident about my chance being hired again. and when i signed my employment letter with my company, we went out together for dinner to celebrate it. but sadly, after i was back, we only had the chance to go out once, but it was more fun with the other ‘date’ we had. and she also shared things about her personal and marriage life, and i also shared some thing to her. mmm… and when i had some problems with A or Y (another colleagues), i found that she could give good advices and thoughts on what was good for me and what i should do, both on professional and personal things. and i’m thankful to have a ‘big sister’ like her here.
second place, it’s HK. my senior and she’s also like a ‘big sister’ to me. although we never went out like what i had with TT, i often share with her on many things. i often go to her cubicle some time during office hour, jz to catch up or hav some gossip session. buttttt… there are things that i couldn’t share with her (since she’s a very religious gal, and for those matters, i’d go to TT). HK also often shares about funny things with her husband or even about her niece and nephew. she really loves her nephew and niece, she really adores them which sometimes make me wonder why she doesnt have her own kids. i once asked her, and her answer was, it was their (her and her husband) decision not to have one, then she mumbled something and i took it that she didn’t feel like sharing much further on this, so i jz kept quiet and changed the topic.
next. there’s D. also my senior. but we hav something in common, we came from the same agency and got converted to permanent staff. he’s a funny guy, talkative and kind. when i got stucked on any work-wise problems, i could always go to him and he’d be willing to help. he’s sooo damn smart too, his brain could go as fast as the MRT. so it’s fun when having discussions with him included coz he could always come up with new and creative ideas but he’s also very open with any inputs from others. he’s also an audiophile, movie and game maniac, and a big fan of Heroes, the tv series. and everytime a new episode showing, the next day we would discuss it and also predict together on what could happen in the next episode. lunches with him are never boring, he always has a topic to be discussed. he could talk to the technology-geeks and with the gals, we could talk about music or movies. on hari Raya, he invited my colleagues and me for a small celebration at his place. and during my visit there, i could see he was a loving father and husband. he hugged and kissed his sons a lot.
then, there are SH, SW and KH. all of them are my bosses. i learnt that a boss should know when to act smart and fierce in front of his employees but also when to act nice in front of the clients. hahaha!
as for the other Singaporean colleagues, i don’t really close to them. sometimes i jz joke around or talk nonsense with them. not about heart-to-heart things.
but then this year, i got the chance to know some new fellow colleagues.
there’s EL, my former colleague, few years younger than me. talkative, funny, quite cute and also quite a good company. i always thought that Singaporean are selfish and self-centered, but when i met EL, i didn’t find him selfish nor self-centered. he often felt paiseh towards his boss when he was thinking to resign, often confused on what he should do and even shared his worried to me. when he left my company, he gave me a coffee mug as a farewell gift. i also try to keep in contact with him. and one day when i texted him but he was busy at office, he said he’d call me that nite, but he got some matters at home so the next day he called me, but too bad i was having lunch and i didnt bring my phone with me. so he texted me, paiseh coz he didnt call me the previous nite. so funny. i never thought that a guy that i jz know for a while, could feel paiseh coz forgot to call me. i jz hope that we could still stay befriend for quite a long time in the future.
then i met J. a very talkative girl. talk a lot. laugh a lot. she’s one of my users but since she’s jz 23, she’s more carefree than other users. sometimes she calls me to ask something regarding the system, but then it continues with gossip sessions. hahaha! we also exchanged xmas gift. she gave me a cross pendant and i gave her a cute jewel box. she’s also the right person to ask about cool place to hang out here in Singapore. so when i’m in need to go to a nice place to drink or listen to live music, she’ll be the first person i ask to.
and then unfortunately i met A. this guy is really something. a 35 year-old divorcee. not a gentleman. fickle-minded. shameless. pervert. flirtatious. *sigh*… getting to know him enable me to learn another type of a guy in this world. he used EL’s name to make his first move towards me. and then the thing was getting worse and worse. and the climax was one date i had with him. it was a scary nite and i still got the chill everytime i remember that nite. and even the last time he said “bye bye” when i finally was able to say that i didnt feel comfortable with him, yesterday he sent a message asking if i could giv him another chance, and today when we met, he asked if i was free tonite. haizzz!! soooo shameless!! even TT said that he shouldn’t eat and shit at the same place. and she also said that if i told her that it was A who made a move to me, she would’ve forbid me from going out with him. well too bad that it’s too late. but it doesn’t mean i can’t fix the future. hehehe.
well… that’s all for the list of Singaporeans that i think have influenced me in my course of life… i’d shall continue with the next people i met in Singapore… 
i’ve been having a good title as a Project Lead for the past few months, i’ve never been a project lead before so it’s time for me to learn from scratch… luckily in the term of project management, i have some colleagues that i can refer to.. but in the term of people management, my skill is still very low…
The project that i’ve been leading is actually not a new one… it’s been on going for almost a year and i have to take over from another project lead since she was going on a maternity leave… so the resources have also been assigned to another project, but there’s still one guy (let’s name him A) who’s already assigned as a Support… my role is also a support for the time being since there’s no development involved…
this A guy is already in other project which timeline is also tight so i really really understand that he’s busy so i always take over in the term of support… then there’s a new guy coming in (let’s name him B), and B is going to be in my project… i have briefed B on the CMS/Back-end modules and flow… but i still need A’s help to brief on front-end pages, framework and even its flow because i’m not familiar with it… it’s still A’s so-called obligation to transfer the knowledge to B since he’s also part of this project’s team…
I asked A to brief B one day, and he said that he could only do it the next day, which was fine by me… but the next day, A kept silent and i said nothing also since i knew he was busy to finish his things… so i kept B busy by giving him tasks on back-end first… then a few days later, B was still busy with back-end so i didn’t say anything to A… but i already mentioned to the bosses that i’ve asked A to brief B but since A was very busy, A would plan out the time himself… and then during lunch time, suddenly A ‘attacked’ me…
A: (Yelling)”why did u ask me to brief B?”
me: (Stunned)”If not you, then who else?”
A: “YOU LAH!!!”
me: (Still stunned and a bit irritated)”I don’t know anything about front-end technically, how am i supposed to brief B?”
A: “You can learn!!!”
me: (Irritated since i’m not supposed to touch the codes anymore)”it’s up to you. i’ve told the bosses that you’re busy. if you don’t want to brief B, then it’s gonna be ur problem too.”
then we didn’t speak to each other during lunch…
I don’t want to sound like a control freak or a leadership freak or even a respect freak… but i demand him to give a little bit of respect to me since i’m his project lead… it’s not his first time yelling at me… previously when both of us were still developers on this project, he yelled at me few times already… but i never really took it too deep…
this time i didn’t take it too personal either… but i jz want him to understand my position as a project lead and if he has difficulties, he should discuss it with me so we can work something out together… but he never talks to me… and even later that day, he eventually briefed B, but he didnt even tell me when he was about to go to B’s desk… he only told his current project lead and i knew about this also from his project lead… and when he was back from briefing B, i told him, “thanks for briefing B. I would appreciate if you could let me know first next time.”, and he only replied, “alrite”
then later that nite, users sent an email regarding urgent matters, but i jz read that email when i arrived late the next day (i went to take care something before going to ofc)… and apparently, the A guy didnt do anything about the email as well… which to me was NOT acceptable since he was still the Support and when users said the matter was urgent, and i was not around, he should handle it, do a quick check and get back to users immediately… but he did NOTHING!!… the issue was only resolved after i replied the email and called the users myself…
i was soooo pissed off… and i sent another email to him, cc his project lead and my manager about this thing…
this project of mine was not an easy project… it’s been troublesome and i know that everyone dislikes it… but no matter we like or not, it’s still our job and it’s our responsibility to fix up the things when necessary… i always thought that we were on the same boat, so we should support and protect each other, especially when it came to face the bosses… but with A guy, he always makes my life difficult… when he is mad or angry, he never yells to other people, only ME!!! and i hate him for that…
i won’t allow him to scold me no more… if he keeps on making my life and my managing this project difficult… then i jz send another email to bosses… i dont care anymore… i couldnt care less anymore… and i jz dont give a damn anymore… if he doesnt even respect me as the same person as others, then why should i???
Filed under: curhat
for the past few days, there’s someone that i really really miss…
it started when i went to canteen with my colleagues to buy drinks… my eyes caught the small table where i used to spend my tea break with my former colleague… there were 2 tables in canteen where we used to sit, either the small table near the pillar where we could watch tv while we enjoyed our tea, or the big table near the window where we could see the green trees downhill…
it suddenly hit me… i miss him… i miss his company for my afternoon tea… i miss our chat session that happened almost everyday in office… i miss seeing him with his colleagues having lunch in canteen… *sigh…* after few weeks after the last time i met him, this is the first time i feel terribly missing him…
few weeks ago we had a dinner date… not really a guy-gal date, but more a friend date… we met to update each other, sharing gossips, etc… but in the end of the date, i feel sad… (i have a post about this date)…
sometimes i wonder… i miss him… but i don’t think i like him more than just friends… i even asked some of my friends about this, and according to them, i don’t have any special feeling for this guy, which i think it’s correct…
i admit that i miss him terribly this week… i was even so desperate and stupid and opened our chat logs jz to remember the funny things we said when we chatted…
but even though i miss him… when we chatted and then it ended coz he had to go or anything, i didn’t feel sad or disappointed… when i called and he sounded so hasty, it was OK for me… of course i liked when he called or IM-ed me, but when he had to go or he was online but he didn’t IM me, it was OK… i didn’t feel sad when i didn’t hear anything from him for quite some time… and it’s fine for me if i’d be the one who text him or IM him first… and when we met, it felt like when i was being with my other guy friends… there was no chemistry that should have happened if i had some feeling for him…
so the conclusion is… he’s jz a friend… whom i’m terribly missing…
i really do…
i really do miss him…
miss him terribly…
but i will not do anything about this… i’m sure it’s jz a phase… next week it will be gone…
Filed under: daily
barusan gue berusaha menghela napas dgn susah payah krn idung gue masi lumayan tersumbat… then tiba2 gue keinget rumah… well… kyknya kl orang sakit slalu keinget rumah yah… ada nyokap ato cici yg bantu sediain makanan… ada ponakan2 yg hibur di kala bosen… duh… kyknya nyaman n hangat banget kl di rumah… n dipikir2… baru kali ini slama gue staon lebih di singapore yg sakit sampe separah ini… minggu kmaren gue terlalu mem-forsir tubuh gue sendiri kyknya… senin-slasa lembur ampe jam 9an… rabu nonton pelem n pulang jam 12 malem… kamis nonton gratis sampe jam 12 jg… jumat pulang cepet jam 10an tp tetep aja dah terlambat… sabtu pegi stengah hr doank, tp ya tetep aja dah keburu cape kyknya… mulai minggu terasa deh… *hiks… *
senin ga gitu pilek cm tenggorokan yg sakit pisan… slasa ditambah pilek… sampe hr ni… sedih jadi nya… butuh kehangatan n kasih sayang ni kyknya… denger2 itu kan obat paling mujarab di kala sakit… huahuahuahua…
sutra ah… hr ni pulang cepet aja… bli makan… trus lgsg bobo… n hopefully tomorrow will be much better…
*ayo Lisaaaaaa!!! 4 jam lagiiiiiiiiii!!!
Filed under: daily
huahh.. sedih.. dr awal minggu dah plu… diawali dr sakit tenggorokan trus sambung menyambung sampe pilek n headache… tp hr ni musti masuk kantor… krn yah begini lah susahnya di singapore, ga bisa seenak jidat telpon n bilang mo cuti sakit, musti ada surat dokternya euy…
* mmm… gue jadi pengen tau tar temen gue yg suka cuti sakit bakal gmn nasibnya pas dah kerja di sini… (rus rus… loe kan demen banget cuti sakit… huahauhaua)…
well anyway… hr ni jadi rada lemes kerjanya… lg mo bikin check list buat deployment, tapi kok lemes yak… pilek ga abis2 pula… untungnya sih dah ga sakit kpala…
trusss.s… pengen nonton pelem… ada Enchanted lg maen, pernah bbrp kali liat trailer nya n kyknya lucu… tp… krn lagi sakit… gue terpaksa menolak ajakan nonton dr temen kantor… gue mo sembuhin ni smua seblom jalan2 lagi… gue lg nunggu ajakan nonton 30 days of nights dr bang deddy jg… diperkirakan palingan akhir minggu ini ato minggu depan baru deh dia ngajak2… ehhh iya… tadi pagi jg dapet ajakan nonton Hitman jumat malem… duh tapi gue kok males nonton action gitu… lg pengen nonton horor…
well… dipikir2 skarang… kl smua nya mulus… ada bang deddy utk nonton 30 days of nights trus ada lagi bang terry utk nonton The Mist nya Stephen King… mmmm… 2 pelem horor dah di tangan… yippiyyy!!!
* bang deddy n bang terry… jgn maen batalin yak… susah loh cari temen buat nonton pelem horor… hiks…
mmm… trus kyknya masalah si om dah beres deh… gue ga mau mengulur2 lagi… krn yah gue nya ga minat… musti be strict n bilang kl gue ga minat… lagian… tu orang maju mundur kyk setrikaan.. cape jadi nya.. i like the type of guys who stick to what he’s said.. skali good bye, ya bener2 good bye lah… jgn bilang good bye trus tau2 besoknya nelpon2 ajakin kencan lagi.. huh! udah cukup jadi nya.. kasian dia nya yg terus berharap2… n kasian gue nya yg emang ga minat ma dia…
slaen gue nya jg ga minat… ada temen gue jg dah larang2 gue ma dia terus… he keeps on saying “IGNORE! IGNORE! IGNORE!”… huahuahuahua… lucu sbenernya liat dia ribut begitoe… but it’s kinda cute… seneng jg liat ada orang yg cukup peduli ma gue… (pertanda orang kurang diperhatiin nih… huahuahauhua..)
trus sempet minggu kmaren ada saat2 di mana gue “labil”… sampe si uchok jg bilang, “lg labil lis, butuh rokok tuh”… n emang sempet kepikir mo ngrokok jg sih… biar pun gue ga ngerti apa enaknya tu rokok… tapi pas ktemu bang uchok kmaren sabtu, uchok cm bawa 2 batang doank… ternyata si bang sapri uda omelin bang uchok krn suru gue ngrokok… hahahaha… jadi lucu… well… krn ga ada rokok, jadi nya gue abisin 2 latte deh… boros dah… *bang sapri, ganti duit buat latteeeeeeee!!!*
